It's been all summer since I blogged. I am falling down on the job. School starts tomorrow for my kids. I have one who can't wait and another who wishes she didn't have too. Senioritis has hit before the school year has started. She would like to be done already. I hope she doesn't miss out and enjoy some the her final year of high school by wishing for something that will come eventually. It reminds me of many things in my life. I keep trying to remind myself to enjoy the now because the rest will come and in a blink my kids will be grown and out on their own. I will miss hanging with my girls and going to the movies. And late night walks. I won't be able to complain about all the shoes laying at the front door. The purses plopped in the hall and all the hair products on the bathroom counter. okay, enough nostalgia. Rebellion. I think about little kids with a defiant look on their face, kids hiding things they do that they know are wrong. But God's been speaking in His quiet way about rebellion. How it can be quiet and insidious. It sometimes masks itself as the thoughts and feelings of "what I deserve" You can go to church, love God and do all you are suppose to and still have rebellion in your heart. It is the thing that causes us to decide not to do something we should but don't want to. It is a way we hold ourselves back emotionally from God's plans, from people we love and obedience to God. Rebellion has it's roots in selfishness. Who doesn't have a problem with that? The Bible also says it is as witchcraft. I've seen that in action in our years of ministry. How it can spread like a stain and runs over on all around. We sometimes think rebellion is proven by action but most recently I have seen in modeled by inaction or apathy. No action is action. It is disobedience to God whether it is passive or aggressive. Yeah, He's showing me stuff around me but not for me to fix them but to make me aware of those spaces in my life. So keep praying for each other and take a look inside to see what God is doing in you:)